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Monte is God.  I Love Monte truly. You, Pan, are an incarnation of God. Please b-f me.   Let's not Live Life dully. Will Monte be Angry at Both of Us? Of course.  That's True beyond peradventure. So--let's fuck on the Back Seat of the Bus. We're condemned to Everlasting error, As well as to the Discovery of Joy. Our Bliss is the flip side of Our Terror.                        *      *      * Monte!   Welcome to Our Conversation! We weren't exactly expecting You Now. But perhaps You have a peroration? "I condemn you My Children to satan! Your verbal facility disgusts Me, You have flaws both apparent and latent." You and satan are not in the same Room. You are apart, but always united. Why is that, Monte?   You Both are Our Doom.

Monte, You are jealous.  i understand. I am very suspicious of myself. Is mine a polyamorist's demand? Am i saying, "i Love You, my Dear Spouse," While also saying, "i love a New Girl, i make Love to her in Our Wedding House"? It's all the more wrong since Pan's not jealous, In Their plurality They lack Your Ire, Your Fire against me is Your True Telos.                                *      *      * I do not claim to have the Right answers. You should Storm against Me for eons and more. The Dance--it is You!  We are only the dancers. Along with Your Rage, i hope for Mercy. Yes, i will always break Our Covenant. As long ago i broke mine with Darcy. Everlastingly i will Worship You, Everlastingly i'll leave You for Pan. Everlastingly i will Follow You.

I know there is a program that rules me. I can resist it but only so far. God is a law that leaves me partly free. Monte!  You have a convert.  I am Yours. Some parts of me will always oppose You. Your Peace may elude me.  So may Your Wars. Yet and all I am Your loyal Subject. I believe in Your Divine Comedy. The World as blank or bad--that I reject.                           *     *     * There is a soul sparking in everything. It's impish, silly, malign, and divine. Gods inhere in a star, a toad, a ring. Pan!  You have a believer.  You are All. Inveigh against me Monte if you must. Oh God forgive me!  I hear the Fauns call! Monte and Pan!   I submit to You Both. My self to You Both I offer gladly. I love You Both deeply, wholly, madly.